Why is this still so hard? I have about a decade's worth of my undergraduate college's magazines that it's difficult to throw away. This reluctance makes no sense. It's not as if I am going to read them. It's not as if someone else needs them. Recycling them so they can be something useful like toilet paper seems obviously preferable to having them lie around gathering dust.
It's just that it feels so final, like another acknowledgement that I have given up my dream of teaching there. As if, if I were to apply again, they would get up to the contract stage and then say, "Do you have all your alumni magazines? Did you read them all cover to cover" and then when I said, "No," they would have to regretfully inform me that since I didn't keep the magazines and now couldn't read them all cover to cover, they couldn't hire me. As if my problems with them theologically and otherwise would even let me get to that point.
Time to let go. Maybe a symbolic, purposeful burning ceremony would be better, but I'm pretty sure my condo association has a rule against that. To the recycling bin with ye! May you be made into bicycles for the poor in other countries or toilet paper or printer paper or something else people will use. Seriously.