when I forget fall

I'm glad, Brother Wolf:

you will remember for me

when I forget fall.

falling faster

Did you see the sky today, Brother Wolf?

Clouds on clouds grey on grey as trees bled out

leaves from fatal wounds of coming winter.

attack of the zombie leaves

autumn crawls deeper 

into buildings leaves 

ghost in on the cold 

breath of the wind seeking

the remembered warmth of 

summer not creepy at all

ghosts of autumn

leaves creep toward warmth

ghosts of autumn drifting in

not creepy at all

I never really wear jewelry

I never wear jewelry
because it's not practical
to wear it with a wrist brace

today I wore jewelry
it didn't stop the pain or
even make it better, but

the green beads were beautiful
handmade for a living wage
in South America, so

this is how I can fight back
against what I'm not quite sure,
but it still feels important

Saturday questions

• Who cuts themselves with eggshells? Under their fingernails? Seriously?!
• Why must foods high in iron taste uniformly gross? Perhaps because I taste it every day as it goes down the back of my throat when my nose tries to bleed but can't because of the swelling from the allergies and the deviated septum from the 6th time I broke my nose?
• Why does winning something feel so nice, even if it isn't something you really want or need? I'm sure the folks I share it with will appreciate my good fortune. : )
• Why do I still laugh so hard at good burping stories? Burping. Heh.

Suddenly, autumn

the leaves have fallen, Brother Wolf,

trees bedraggled and beautiful

as rain drips softly, on and off,

wind gently prods now-bare branches

mourning summer's fallen playmates

regretfully swirling the dead

temptation to do

In light of the dizziness, swelling, poor wound healing, brain foginess, pain flare-up, thyroid struggling, cold-intolerance, anemia, and my inability to grasp anything (literally or figuratively), one could argue that I might be overdoing it and should use my day off to, oh, I don't know, rest and NOT try to DO ALL THE THINGS, since that do-things strategy seems to not be working for me very well. At least it will be raining. Lying on the couch watching the rain seems to be about my speed right now. Must resist temptation to do . . .

unseasonable autumn

final tree frogs bask

unseasonable autumn

weather calls us out

asthmatic in autumn

windy days are good

for locating spiders' webs

but not for breathing

before winter comes

October whirls by

adolescent beavers play

before winter comes

the poem about the dead deer (attempt 18?)

ruin of Monday morning first
day of autumn weather doe curled
impossibly graceful dead with
startling boneless acceptance
that only the shattered display

that kind of week

Dead mouse welcomes me

from inside my warm garage.

Is it Friday yet?

when you are happy your thyroid is failing (again)

My thyroid is on the ropes again.  Yay!  I'm excited about this because

• I noticed and got it checked (eventually, dang brain fog)!
• I wasn't making it up; it's worse than ever!
• it might be related to one of the numerous new allergy meds I've been trying to get off decongestants on the off chance I will then sleep better!

These are all good things (more or less) because the sudden weight gain and enormous increase in joint pain and other symptoms have a reason now and are not a signal that my body is tired of all this crap and has given up.  See?  Yay!  And if they were caused by a med (and I have a culprit in mind already), then maybe I can get my thyroid working again like I did the last two times and won't have to go on a med for it forever yet.  Hope springs eternal!  (But has to be cautious of increased dizziness and on the alert for overdoses that lead to heart problems.  Really noticeable and obvious heart problems.)

Huzzah?

the deck dragon sheds its leaves

wind gusts and bellows
bearded beast shivers and roars
soon leaves will be gone

every fall they come

how do I destroy
drain flies of autumn swarming
in my house this fall

unmistakable

unmistakable
taste of blood in back of throat
winter is coming

again with the drain flies of autumn

coldness spreads today

the drain flies of autumn swarm

I am not a fan

coat walking weather

lovely sun-drenched days
perfect coat walking weather
now it is autumn